A Kernel Ready To Pop

Something shifted in the past two days. Energetically there seemed to be a heaviness, a stillness that felt new. In this space I also felt an agitation that I hadn’t experienced yet. I wanted to explode out of my body and yell “no more!” My son, Luke, was expressing this as well. At the beginning of quarantine, he reminded me “I’m an out and about kind of guy.” He’s right. He’s a funny kind of extrovert/introvert. He’s in his glory out and about in the world, playing sports and moving through his daily routines. He feels safe in this space. They fill his cup. While he pulls energy from these bigger events, he’s also a quiet observer. At first glance, he seems shy. Anyway, navigating his social and soul-full needs has been tricky and yesterday, it all started to RISE.

As the day progressed, I observed his body getting clumsy, his face tightening and like a kernel ready to pop, he looked like he wanted to explode. He missed it all. He missed his people and his routines. He missed looking forward to things and going out into the world like we used to. Luke looked at me and said “Quarantine is hard.” That’s it. In the most simplest of ways, he described an experience that has been indescribable until now. Quarantine is hard. Plain and simple. There will be many HARD things in his life moving forward, but this space is inviting him to move through a very unfamiliar feeling. Some days he will lean in and other days he might just want to check out. if this is something you’re experiencing on any level, with any relationship consider this ~As hard as this might feel, first bring love into your heart…. give it a color and breathe it in while your feet are grounded into the floor…next wrap an invisible blanket of love around the other. Exchanging this energy is a quiet, gentle healer. Thanks for reading.