Acknowledging The Trudge
Trudge (Verb): To walk slowly and with heavy steps, typically because of exhaustion or harsh conditions.
I write to you with one goal in mind and that is to connect. I want you, reader, to feel that yes moment or find yourself nodding your head up and down. Of course your connection might also be in complete disagreeance, and that’s ok too.
One of the sparks that has carried me through the past two years has been grabbing hold of the places that scare me and laying them out on the table. I’ve let vulnerability tug at me, pushing me to adjust and readjust some of the systems I held tightly to pre-pandemic.
It’s felt both jostling and freeing to throw your hands up and say “Why the heck not!” when making those subtle tweaks to your life’s priorities and purpose.
I’ve enjoyed watching others break free from their old conditioned ways while having their own personal hero moments. Whether you’ve moved, started a business, changed jobs or said good-bye (to habits, to people to…fill in the blank), these past several months have certainly had their glory.
However, when I sat down to write this post, the word trudge came to me over and over again. This current state of slugging it out. And I know I can sit here and point the finger to a million places outside of myself~ the pandemic, the weather, the lack of sunlight, the exhaustion and on and on and on but I’m painfully realizing those things have become my own safety blanket.
The truth is, I’ve become a tad lost on my own road map. The connection between my head and my heart has been under construction. Admittedly so, I’ve been camped out in my head for some time now feeling slightly uninspired, while allowing that naysayer voice to rule the roost. It’s true, we are exhausted and it’s true, the conditions have felt harsh but what’s also true is we don’t have to give our personal power away to those trudgeable factors.
So yes, maybe I’m writing to give myself my own personal pep talk, but if you need a pep talk too then let’s have one. My hope is to do daily check ins with my head and my heart and the energetic channel that flows between them. If that space feels heavy or lopsided then I need to get to work. How? Here's what works for me~ Connect and create. I connect with what inspires me and to the people I feel I can take my armor off with. And second, I write. That is my creative outlet. I stink at baking (mostly because I don’t have patience for the recipes) and I have nothing close to resembling a green thumb (just to name two creative examples)…but writing is my fix and it helps my inner compass point north again.
If you’re still here. Thank you. Are you facing north?
