We Will See

This morning I woke up and, metaphorically speaking, felt like I was trudging through sloppy, muddy sand with no particular direction or exact end point in sight. I don’t mean to bring the mode or energy down on this Monday morning but the number of times I’ve said “we will see” to my two hopeful children is starting to sound old and grumpy.

Clear, heart centered communication is a place I’ve been putting a lot of energy recently. It is certainly a thing I’ve grappled with for a very long time and I still have a long way to go… but I sure as hell am trying. This is how it lands for me… A: I don’t want to hurt people and B: I end up feeling responsible for how the other person takes what I have to say and then their energy becomes my energy and I am left as one big ball of angst.

This is not a healthy place to be…annnnnnndddd…. we are all human. Not wanting to hurt others is certainly a more comfortable path to take especially when it comes to our children. So, is there opportunity here, yes. In the “we will see,” I’ve started to lay the ground work for the typical summer things to not happen this year. I observe in my children the initial zing and then watch as they process and ask questions along the way. I am the hands holding the safety net and one by one I will gather their questions and noticings up, hold them in my heart and answer them as truthfully and honestly as I possibly can.

With love, I face the “we will see” and trust that we will all make sense of it the way we need to. And I promise this, turning to face, hold and share the hard stuff is exactly what we need right now to start planting a new way…